What is Consciousness?
Consciousness is “the awareness of perception of something by a person”. What are you aware of about yourself? I am aware that I eat a lot of sweets, sugar. I know that it isn’t healthy for my body. I am aware that I eat a lot sometimes and then not for 4 or 5 days. I am aware of all the opinions people have about sugar. Habit, causes diabetes, being overweight, its a poison, addictive and a petri dish for the breeding of cancer cells. I know all the excuses too, the food industry puts it in the foods, its everywhere you turn and hard to avoid and last but not least “I just want it, it tastes good!” So why do I keep justifying it and stuffing it in my mouth? Is it because I am a rebel? Is it simply because it tastes good or because I have no self control? There is a little truth to all of these.
But there is always a deeper reason…..mine is I need the distraction. Distraction from what? The distraction from going deeper inside myself. Here is an interesting conversation and awareness I had with myself:
“No, no I am a good person and I have done a lot of self reflection and made positive changes in my life” screams my ego. “True, my divine self acknowledges, but there is more to discover, uncover, purge, embrace and love about yourself. “Oh no, no no! you are undeserving of that, remember when you did that “bad” thing that one time?” my ego reminds me. By now I am stuffing that extra piece of leftover cake left from my daughters birthday party in my mouth to drown out the chatter in my head and to stop the awareness in my stomach and heart that is rising up. It feels uncomfortable and I must stop it! “Yes but if you do that again, Rachel then you cant receive this gift” my divine self offers. What gift? “This is simply a pattern/energy created to show you something”. Ok I’ll ask, show me what? “Old thoughts and beliefs you have about yourself that no longer serve you. If you will look at it truly and acknowledge its gift. Then take a deep breath – exhale and let it go, the hold it has on you and in your life will decrease.” said the warm, soft divine voice.
My life, your Life and the world around us is always showing us, reflecting to us, information about ourselves. Sometimes its beautiful like looking at the sunset on a beach on a warm summer night. Other times its pain, back pain or witnessing the pain of a dear friend. Or smaller and even more subtle, eating too much sugar. The point is its all there, in our life, for us to become conscious of, to become aware of . Every time, without exception, I accomplish this via going deeper inside myself.